Suicide hot line is a joke?

i recently called the national suicide prevention hotline to get some immediate help because i was feeling like i wanted to check out. I was really feeling at my lowest due to a very bad break up with a woman i loved but found out she was cheating on me, this just 4 years after divorcing my wife for coming out of the closet and announcing she was gay. I just couldn't deal with it. The operator or counselor talked to me for less than 5 minutes and then told me she would have to cut it short because other people may be trying to call. Well excuse me i thought this was about saving lives, she told me that someone would be calling me in the next couple of days to check on me m but i never received any such calls. For all she know i could've just killed myself right then, after all i was calling to talk to someone so that they could convince me not to .She also acted like she was bored with my sad story and even hung up on me, when i called back she claimed the connection was bad. If i really had the to kill myself that night i would have, but a family member came over unexpectedly and talked me out of it. So, i just want to say shame on you whoever you are, for being so insensitive and uncaring. As far as i'm concerned, you didn't give a damn if i lived or died that night.Those people don't really give a damn about you. Does anyone know of a legitimate hotline where i can actually talk to someone who has time to listen to my sad story? I live in the Chicago area